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people always say you should write how you feel and i feel like crap so i will write crap

I hate how I try so hard but my results are crap... I guess I just gotta try harder...

I also hate... how so much girls drink nowadays... it's just stupid... I guess it's a fad? hell if I know

I think it's stupid how there are some guys that care so much about a girl but then the girl dates some guy that doesn't even care about them and breaks up or ends up hurting in the end and then just does it over again while that other guy still cares about her but she doesn't know or care... then again it's stupid to care about someone so much if they don't care about you too...

and love is pretty stupid... well not really but I don't think teenagers such as myself should try to get into relationships till later (yeah you're probably thinking yeah right as if you could get into a relationship anyways... yeah whatever i agree) because "you never know what will come along" basically as in you don't know if you're gonna stay with them all the way... and then if you don't and you spent alot of time on them or with them it'll feel like you've just wasted alot of time and effort, just as if you commit suicide after all the effort your parents spent on you... anyways getting back to the subject and also you gave away alot of love and you have won't have as much to give to the one you might end up with... a good song to match what i've been saying is Vegas by New Found Glory... also it's stupid how people say they love each other so much but after a short while maybe even a day... they break up

but it's hard not to even want to be in relationship because you see others in relationship or even your friends and you don't want to be left out of the circle... or look like an oddball or an outcast... (cuz being an outcast really sux... it's practically the same as being bullied... i'll tell about my own experience next time) so then most people try to get in a relationship even through most desperate ways or means...

here's some more crap I wrote if you're bored

as I awoke to sound of screams, I walked over to the sink
I heard sinisters laughs as I coughed up blood
was it voices in my head? I stopped to think...
I could hardly move, tranquilized with fear
A sudden chill ran down my spine
I turned to look and saw no one behind...
I attempted to scream but no one could hear
All in a moment I was knocked unconscious
I awoke in a warehouse everything was all a blur
what had happened I did not know for sure
I stood up and looked straight ahead
Someone stood there looking half-dead
I could make out a face, as things became clearer
I could feel a strange presence, as "IT" approached nearer
Then I saw, what I wished not to see
It was YOU, with the same sinister grin
holding that blade, as you chained me up
Another victim, pouring blood to fill another cup
My screams you enjoyed as music to your ears
I silenced myself yet you smiled more
Drip, drip, drip, as each drop of blood fell to the floor

and a funny ass video...